Are we worthy? Are you?
I am not worthy to receive you.
I am not worthy.
These are not the words
of any wizard, of any wonder,
of any wonderful god.
Wonderful does not whip us with worthless.
Wonderful does not teach worthless words.
I am not worthy…
These are the words of men
dressed in robes; black threads
woven over winged capes (not that dark knight bearing light)
not dressed as plain men,
preachers married to invisible faiths,
not married to people,
not knowing true love
or what remains after its loss.
Are we worthy, Are you?
Lord, they are not worthy
to speak for me, not in my name
and not, either, in yours.
Were they not worthy,
those wards your black winged women
washed away in the water?
Where is the worth in the world?
I thought laundries
were meant to clean clothes
not suffocate babies in sewers
beneath the shadows.
Was it worth it?
All that worry washed away with the waste.
Lord, here is my worth.
I place it, next to their judgement,
by your feet
and you can decide what has worth
and whose words are worthless
as I reteach myself the value of that single word
in this complicated world,
as I build my own words to be a witness
to losing the less and seeing the more,
I will be my own critic
keeping the Christian and shaking the ‘anity’
that lingers too close to insanity.
I hear only the devil in my head
whispering of worthless.
Surely the right man should be brighter,
Here is my worth…
thread carefully upon it,
not like the prints the pious
already pressed into it
from their proud position
behind the pulpit.
I live in the wild world, not privy to any protection.
Are they worthy to receive me?
I profess this belief, to you.
All words and photographs by Damien B. Donnelly
26th poem for National Poetry Writing Month