IN THE LIGHT OF LIES

 

Behind the darkness,
before the morning wakes,
I reach for you, one last time
and accept all that must fall away
in the light of our lies and mistakes.

All Words and Photographs by Damien B. Donnelly

Photograph: Light flooding the Hato Caves on the Dutch caribbean island of Curacao 

WE TOOK THE EARTH

 

The states have shifted
subtle shifts         sudden shifts
not so subtle warnings,
the ground is unsteady
tiny trembles           threatening trembles
not so steady warnings,
the flowers are blooming
out of season                                         every season
not so seasonal seasons,
the rain is falling
summers drowning                                    winters drying
no predicting the seasons,
the ice is melting
seas are rising                                                    lands are sinking
these were not just warnings.

The states have shifted,

we took the Earth

and now the Earth is taking back.

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All Words and Photographs by Damien B. Donnelly

Photographs taken at the IceWatch installation for COP2 in Paris, France.

ONLY AFTERWARDS

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He tasted of pine
pressed into skin,
nicotine fingers
and beer bound breath
naked beneath
the fairy lights
and twinkling balls
as a cat and dog
watched their shadows
kissing on the walls.

She tasted of punch,
cinnamon sticks
and orange scents
with red rimmed lips
and bare naked breasts
to blush the baubles,
suspenders suspended no more
as the cat and dog
played with discarded clothes
on the floor.

New Year’s Eve
had become New Year’s Day
as she took him to her bed
to screw away the hangover
and reason out the resolutions.

It was only afterwards that she asked him his name.

All Words and Photographs by Damien B. Donnelly

 

NON PLUS

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Between je t’aime and je t’aime, moi non plus
there is so much more
than love and hate;
I love you
I put my trust in you
I thrust myself into you
I lost my thrust in you
I hate you,
je t’aime, moi non plus,
I love you
I ache for you
my limbs ache from you
it aches to look at you
I hate you,
je t’aime, moi non plus,
I love you
I lay with you
I lie with you
I lied to you
I hate you,
je t’aime, moi non plus,
I love you
moi, non plus.

 

All Words and Photographs by Damien B. Donnelly

(Rowing Boats in Richmond, England)

HE TOOK THE LIGHT

 

He took the light
wrapped himself around it
as the rain fell outside
as the machine beeped
in the room next to him
the same monotonous sound
unchanging, unending, eternal

He took the light
held it to his body
as the darkness fell outside
as the machine beeped
in the room next to him
the same hypnotic motion
sounding, stopping, sounding, stopping

He took the light
down beneath the covers
as if light could conquer darkness
as if light could elevate illness
while all the world was sleeping
but the machine kept on beeping
calling, signalling, coming closer

He took the light
before the light took him…

 

All Words and Photographs by Damien B. Donnelly

La réunion de la fin et le début/The meeting of the end and the beginning

 

C’est la fin
mais c’est aussi un nouveau départ
il fait froid dehors
mais le soleil brille encore
nous avons perdu les choses
mais nous continuons
nous apprenons
et avec le temps
nous allons gagner, 
c’est la fin
mais aussi
il y a encore
de belles choses à faire…

It is the end
but it is also a new start
it is cold outside
but the sun still shines
we have lost things
but we keep going
we learn
and with time 
we will gain,
it is the end
but also
there are still
more beautiful things to do…

Happy New Year Everyone

All Words and Photographs by Damien B. Donnelly

31st December 2015, Paris, France

PAPA WAS

 

Papa was a stranger, stranded, in an otherwise happy home; a simple man,
a grumpy man, a man behind the papers; the sporting Sun on Sunday
and the Herald on a Monday before the news, nightly; 6pm and 9,
a modest man of meandering manners with inside-out sweaters
on Saturdays while he washed the car clean, the van clean,
the bike clean; spotless, blameless, blemish-less,
as if remembering someone, sensing someone
behind him, inside him, tormenting him
as if hearing someone commenting,
criticising, pointing and punishing.
Papa was a struggler, a stranger strangled
by harmless affection, by tendencies of trust,
fleeing and failing the obligation to feared family
and fleeting friends as if running from all connections,
as if unsure of what to say, how to hear, who to be and how to stay.
Papa was a shadow of someone, a stranger to himself as much as me,
the warden in the window, the watcher from the window, behind the blinds,
taking notes behind the lines, lines I could not see, lines I could not cross.
Papa was stranger, stranded, a wearisome worrier watching the world
through the window and on tv or was he watching the world
just to understand just how he could be understood…

 

All Words and Photographs by Damien B. Donnelly

RED RIBBON

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You opened me
You held my heart
in your own bare hands
beating
I bared all for you
I lay naked for you
I shed my layers
revealing,
I have become undone
loosened, lessened,
I have been unravelled
like ribbon
unrolling,
red knotted ribbon,
like red rotting blood
on the stone cold floor
of a battered heart
barely beating
revealing the emptiness
of our essence.

All words and photographs by Damien B. Donnelly

 

THIS IS HOW WE MOVE

 

This is how we move
now, in the aftermath 
in the silence
in their absence

This is how we monitor
here and now, in the passing
under surveillance
under scrutiny

This is what happens
when the scandals burn out
when the candles burn out
this is how it goes

This is how we move, now
monitoring the metros
soldiers on streets
searches in stores

This is how we move
now, in the aftermath
and still the shadows build
and still the voices are missing
when before they were just
laughing and eating,
when once they were just
drinking and singing.

This is how we move
now, in the aftermath.

 

All words and Photographs by Damien B. Donnelly

METROPOLIS

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We saw you that day, a world away from today, in a gentler time,
when your towers of trade still stood, we saw you in your brown stones
and running shoes, always running, always pacing, always off somewhere;
somewhere newer, someplace shinier, somewhere brighter, someplace bigger
and we felt so small, so new to it all, looking on;ignorant, innocent, breathless,
you with your yelling arms hailing yellow cabs, you with your giant cars
tearing along your streets, always up the avenues and over the hundreds;
would I ever remember, could I ever forget, would we ever be able to sleep
in our tower above the park, above your streets that towered beneath us,
over us, your buildings that glistened in the daylight, sparkled in the starlight,
sparkled all night, soaring higher and higher, neck ache; always looking up
to see where they ended and the heavens began, streets like soldiers marching
downtown to funky town, Chinatown, Italian town, Liberty’s crown.
We saw you like that, that day, your brown stones and yellow cabs,
the Vanguard and the Village, where he sang and I sobbed, sobbed as he sang
for me, sang for a father. We saw you, uptown for lunches from Zabar’s,
picnics in parks before midtown for belters that blinded us on Broadway.
We saw you and your hidden treasures and your childhood pleasures;
the library, at the back, behind the glass; Winnie the Pooh and Tigger too.
We saw you, suddenly, that day, with one turn, as we fell upon your bridge,
your bridge to Brooklyn, sketched by Roebling and favoured by Whitman,
and there, above the Hudson, a turn away from the hustle and bustle,
in the years before fear reigned, before terror struck and we broke up,
everything opened up and a stillness reigned triumphantly in the air,
until, just a moment later, a siren shot through the city to remind us
that while we’d found a quiet edge, it was just an edge of a great big
shiny metropolis. We saw you that day, together, as one, one summer
when everything seemed eternal. We saw you like that, that day
and never dared to think what might happen if it all fell down.

All words and Photographs by Damien B. Donnelly