Papa was a stranger, stranded, in an otherwise happy home; a simple man,
a grumpy man, a man behind the papers; the sporting Sun on Sunday
and the Herald on a Monday before the news, nightly; 6pm and 9,
a modest man of meandering manners with inside-out sweaters
on Saturdays while he washed the car clean, the van clean,
the bike clean; spotless, blameless, blemish-less,
as if remembering someone, sensing someone
behind him, inside him, tormenting him
as if hearing someone commenting,
criticising, pointing and punishing.
Papa was a struggler, a stranger strangled
by harmless affection, by tendencies of trust,
fleeing and failing the obligation to feared family
and fleeting friends as if running from all connections,
as if unsure of what to say, how to hear, who to be and how to stay.
Papa was a shadow of someone, a stranger to himself as much as me,
the warden in the window, the watcher from the window, behind the blinds,
taking notes behind the lines, lines I could not see, lines I could not cross.
Papa was stranger, stranded, a wearisome worrier watching the world
through the window and on tv or was he watching the world
just to understand just how he could be understood…


All Words and Photographs by Damien B. Donnelly

5 thoughts on “PAPA WAS

  1. directorb

    Wow I absolutely love this. So much meaning behind this. Thanks for sharing and happy new year! Hope it’s going great so far!

    1. deuxiemepeau

      Thanks David. There’s always a fear in writing something so personal as to whether you can stay objectionable or even if it can be easily understandable to others. Thanks for stopping by

      1. davidcecilio

        For me, this personal touch brings to it its real depth. Knowing this is real to someone is what makes it at the same time sharp and yet close.

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