I drifted away once,
Carried off by a delusional dream
Of how it all could be-
Consumed and captured,
And so far removed
And intrinsically valuable
That I forgot for a while
Who I was,
What I had
And how to return.
I was swept away once, long ago,
By everything I’d ever imagined
That I lost sight of everything
I’d ever had or held.
I’d cast myself somehow
Off into an infinite ocean,
Driven to dive deeper by desires
But only to find that down deep,
In the dark,
Every excessive dream loses luster
And fades forever
Amid the fathomless
Faith of the forgotten
I did not wake until the bottom found me
And roared its laughter in my ears
In those too few precious moments
When the truth finally surfaced within me,
So deep below,
Every movement made to swim back
To the comfort of your shoreline
Sent such ripples all around me
That I lost sight of where you actually lay.
Will you ever know how the sorrow
Grows within me
As time passes
And we remain
I let myself drift away, once,
Only to fail later in finding favor with the shore.
If I were an ocean
I would send ripples
Through the waters
To warn you of my sinking.
But I am mere man,
Trapped inside a body
Of drowning emotions,
Looking always and evermore
For that selfishly forsaken shore.