Squirrel scuttles across the sea of grass.
Stops to my right to consider someone else’s acorn.
Mouth twitches to mimic tail before I’m noticed.
Embarrassed by my presence he adopts a still stance
as if that might make him invisible.
Don’t worry, I whisper, I can relate. Once I found lips too sweet to miss and kissed them. There in the open. Knowing they were not mine.
New leaf climbs old tree- this ivy will not be held down is no direction, dynamic is the trail of this root now gleaming on the hallow wood. Sometimes empty centres are for holding hopeful hearts. Layers of leaves come like coats of zinc- a wrapping for these times were comfort is craved. Nature nurtures freshly cut back bark by the side of the garden where thought had been neglected. Not everything will survive- not all bark, not all breath, but hope, when held, can be as simple as a trail of fresh branch born around a broken bark.
I saw you first in a library, in a bound book on front of the light, as if you needed to ripen any further. My first book, bound and borrowed from a library, was Mrs. Potter’s inquisitive rabbit Peter, all eager to explore the taste of all he could not yet name. We’re like that, children- eager for the answer before we’ve really come to consider the question. I ask myself more now, at this midway through the darkness than I ever did then, where all was so seemingly light. Yesterday, in the garden my youth once played on, that time has now returned to consider, an eager rabbit came out to play and I asked if perhaps there was camomile in the cupboard.
No, but there’s a pomegranate in the pantry
came the reply.
And I looked at Peter and laughed like I’d taken you from the bookshelf in that light library, that day and smiled as I turned your pages that held just as many questions as there were answers.
We were waiting for the green man beneath the blue sky, waiting on an open corner to cross over, do you remember?
A simple day of smiling sunshine, an easy lunch of eating smiles and we were laughing, were laughing at everything and nothing- at the osteopath and his cracking observations and the sunshine in that blue sly and your belly getting bigger.
You were listening to me, looking at me telling some tale, making it taller, I’m sure, but you didn’t see I was floating- my feet off the ground on that silly day, on that sunny day of simplistic observations on easy corners with their moments and movements when I found myself laughing and my feet no longer weighted- no longer ground down or in or under.
We were bouncy and breathy and your belly- unbreakable, so delicately unbreakable beneath the blue sky at a crossing while eating up those bright smiles and breathing in easy air under all that yellow laughter and realising that the red man, when given time, will eventually give way to the green.
Back story- Orla Grant-Donoghue originally invited 16 poets to create 16 new poems based on their favourite books and we were going to read these poems at Alan Hanna’s Bookshop in Rathmines Dublin, today. Of course, due to current events, all that was cancelled but it still took place today online on Twitter…
You can read all the poems and discover all the artists in one place because Eoin from BlueFoot Books kindly put it all together for us. This is the link to the site…
The book I chose was 20,000 Leagues Under the Sea by Jules Verne and here, with my 1st attempt at using Clips and my almost octogenarian mother as Camera Woman extraordinaire, is my Short Film to showcase the poem. Welcome to the Nautilus, Captain Nemo and his fellow passengers are waiting. It’s Time …
Mobilis in Mobili
Behold the monster- metal made, making movements under waves. Air trembles. Earth rocks. The sea is a desert. Immense. Without Master. But with mineral, vegetable, animal. Man can be the beast on land- despots, destroyers. Land and Mr. Land who can’t swallow water. Down below, beneath the glass. Glass is breakable, like man, but can be of service like Conseil- glass is capable of offering resistance. Considerable. And He comes to resist. Resist man and land and service. But he takes the Other down, leagues below the darkness to where there’s light, to admire this liquid light through which they sail, his electric thread of connection, there, in that place which is far off and exceedingly deep, away from those despots, his own aquatic flock below the wave, his own folly to float through the fathoms. Fathoms. One comes to fathom who can find it out, how man can flee, can float on his own hope, his own pride, his own position. Opposition. Defence. Defender. Here below, where there are no masters. But one. And it isn’t always the sea.
Although the sea is everything. The globe began with the sea and may end that way too. He is the Sea and must defend himself. And Man? The sea is an immense desert where man is never lonely. Though man is on his own. Not being Mineral. Or Vegetable. Or always animal.
Darkness is deceiving, regardless of its liquid light. Behold the maelstrom! The Nautilus is no narwhal. A can of unquestionable character can also be a coffin. Man can make his own. His own house. His own home. His own tomb. To float. In the water. Through the light. Leagues below the sunlight. Where light is electric, that fine thread. Finely Snapped. I recognise no masters here, he said. I am free, here, he said. God Almighty! And the Other blinked, for a moment and took hold of Land and his Conseil. And then looked back to behold the monster. Some are drawn to the deep, to the current, to the curiosity of the perpendicularity, to the leagues of light at the far end of the black water, where there are no other men murdering to be masters. Behold. Enough. Enough.
The Cast…
Damien B. Donnelly
With huge thanks to Orla, Eoin at BlueFoot, Alan Hanna’s and my fellow poets and you, for tuning in xx
Tomorrow is Poetry day Ireland but as we can’t go out and do our thing, we are staying in and doing our thing anyway.
Poetry time at Alan Hanna’s Bookshop in Dublin will be online and celebrating from 11am onwards on Thursday. Catch us on twitter and instagram and Facebook and anywhere we can make a post and share of poetry. And it’s all about our favourite books.
There will even be poems and links and videos and maybe a mini movie. So don’t sleep through the day- come join in the fun…
Morning comes with birdsong these days instead of street cars and sirens, Blue Tit and Yellow Hammer next to daisy, daffodil and dandelion as the garden springs like never before. Part 2
Afternoon is found at the far end of the near field because distance is dearer now as we take slow steps around all we once overlooked to see what this unsettling light can reveal along those old paths life lost time for.
Part 3
Night comes with gentle lights that dance in windows, flames reaching out further than the stretch of our arms, to touch other souls at the far end of other fields recalling old paths while wondering what tomorrow’s birdsong will bring.
I do not play chess. I grew bored of board games at an early age, as an only child who lived in his head where fairies were magical and not mauled. I guess I had enough make believe on my shoulder, already. I was ultra-shy as a kid, I guess I didn’t understand who I was and tried not to get tied up in conversations that consisted of ruminations of who I wanted to become. Identity was difficult to determine on a blank canvas that already had sections sinking below the surface. We had a cherry blossom tree in the front garden that rained pink petals onto the lawns in late spring, I remember standing under them in a white suit, new holder of the holy spirit and wondering if it would make it any easier and what is the weight of a knot. I would slay dragons for you. I remember saying that over and over, I’d heard it once, in a movie when I was too young to know how many people I’d say it too and how few would slay even a tame dog in return. I know who I am, now since those quiet days under the fall of the cherry when rainy days meant silly games and the coming of the spirit didn’t have as much effect on my soul as it did on my wallet. I have tasted more, too- beauty, bounty, boys, bitches, sunsets and saints, gods and clowns, serpents that tasted sweet and a certain kind of cute that gave venomous a new name. I too have found the bitter side of who I can be, they’d put me on a pedestal at a young age and left me there, perishing alone, at that height and since then my knees have always trembled at the sight of stairs. I’ve climbed right down since then and managed to make my way out of the gutter while putting together my own idea of what it takes to embrace the darkness while shining like a fucking star.
We come considered, now, congestion side-lined by concern, far from those racing rats who reigned over the old normal, the old days, the old ways. It’s not about choice anymore but proximity- a courgette in place of an aubergine, some Cheddar instead of Stilton, potatoes again instead of that other, sexier, sweeter variety, like those snowmen I built on the beach, out of sand, back in half drowned summers when I didn’t have a bucket to cast a castle.
Do you wanna build a… well, we make do.
We move, now, on the far sides of odd aisles where no one overtakes, where we all stop to let people pass by, first, before, before coming too close- a new return to old graces highways could do with heeding. This is how we move, down familiarly strange aisles, planning recipes to avoid disasters under masks, under gloves, under pressure to keep our distance, to keep going on, through this new normal.
I slipped recently onto an old road that had circled back onto my diverted path to find myself at first flat, basement floor, 25 years grown between us like the weeds in the forgotten garden where I looked to see if the cobbles still recalled my sole before remembering how, on winter nights that seemed bluer than black, in hallowed hallway, I’d sit by the payphone, juggling coins in jars of naivety and watch the lights from the traffic flood the darkness like a fanfare through the curved window above the door and dream of how it would feel to slip, finally, from streets that simply circled.
I slipped recently onto an old road, happy to discover that even diverted paths know how to accept circles as something to grow to love, like certain weeds that complement the cobbles where I found a part of my soul, sitting. Waiting for me to call back.