PARIS IN PICTURES

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Starting at top left with a Jeu de Paume exhibition advertised at Cite Metro station on Ile de la Cite, La Tour Eiffel seen from Le Mur pour la Paix (The Wall of Peace), a bench in Jardin du Luxembourg, the back roof of the Saint Sulpice church in the 6th arrondissement, Notre Dame seen from the terrace of Institut du Monde Arabe on Quai Saint Bernard.

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Autumn revealing its colour on the hills of Parc de Belleville in the 20th, looking at reflections on a glass wall of the George Hermant swimming pool in the 19th, plant pots on Rue Mabillon in the 6th, La Tour Eiffel and the champ du Mars, graffiti on columns in the Maison du l’Air in Belleville, mosaic panelling inside the Institut du Monde Arab.

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A man sitting in the Jardin des Tuileries, a winding side street in the 6th, metro line at Pasteur in the 15th, a bridge in the Parc Bercy in the 12th, trees along the road side in Neuilly Sur Seine, a house in Parc Bercy.

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 A black and white shot of the Nassim de Camondo Museum in the 8th, the bridge again (I like it), a tree yellowing at Parc Montsouris in the 14th by Cite Universitaire, polar ice melting at the Pantheon in the 5th for the Climate Change conference, a chandelier in a glass ball on a lake in the Jardin des Tuileries and a deserted railway line in the 14th.

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Boat houses opposite Ile de la Grande Jatte in Neuilly Sur Seine, the Louis Vuitton Foundation museum in the Bois de Boulogne, the entrance to Parc Monceau in the 8th and finally a leafy lane in Parc Bercy.

The featured photograph is a hot air balloon (Ballon GENERALI de Paris) hovering over Parc Andre Citreon in the 15th arrondissement.

All Words and Photographs by Damien B. Donnelly

KOREAN INSPIRED

On a break from posting poetry, I am sidelining, for a moment, into my ‘studied’ trade of pattern maker and avid admirer of all things fashion orientated.

The Musee des Arts Decoratifs in Paris, France, located along the rue du Rivoli wing of the Louvre, recently unveiled its latest exhibition entitled KoreaNow, bringing to the attention of Europe the often overlooked delights and brilliance of Korean artisans from Craft, Design, Graphics and Fashion.

The largest selection of the 700 pieces of work, by over 150 artists, features a visually breathtaking collection of Korean clothing, showcasing how ancient traditions have evolved into modern day trends. Serenely laid out in darkened rooms where each piece steps out of the shadows to instantly mesmerise the viewer, the collection is divided into bolts of colour, ending in the purest tones of white. Intricately folded, pressed and twisted papers are turned instantly into the most ornate head decoration which accentuate without distracting the viewer from each piece. Aside from the fashion on display in the upper rooms and the graphics section, where videos explain how the Korean alphabet Hangul came into being under the reign of King Sejong in the 15th century to distinguish Korean from Chinese, the exhibition also showcases Korean excellence in jewellery, ceramics, lighting and furniture of sublime form and timeless simplicity.

Here are just a few of the pieces that began to stir my inspiration:

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So, after a lunch in the unexpected but much appreciated October sunshine, I flew home, on a high, literally, excited, inspired and itching to get creative and this transpired:

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I grabbed bolts of fabric, the sharpest scissors, chalks and the threads, flamed up the sewing machine and let the moment take me, Korean style, on a journey to make my own Hanbok (Korean Kimono).

Resulting in this…

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Get Inspired today

All words, photos and homemade Hanbok by Damien B. Donnelly

Joni on the Mantelpiece

 

They met in Paris, first, temple street, 2nd floor,
Capricious teenagers cavorting into their twenties,
Ardent and ernest, like you were once, in Greece,
In Californian climes, casually cruising that fragrance
Of embryonic adulthood, a god-fearing blonde
And a darker haired homo reading her his poems,
Pathetic irrational rhymes while she postulated
His meaning, his leaning, his lust, his hunger,
Different to hers, he was meat and she vegan,
Excessively, and a virgin, implausibly, but they danced
For a while, boho style, in their condo by Picasso,
In that marshland, tumbling through your tunes,
Cords you’d constructed, teased and twisted
Around your fingers, round your head, birthing
An early cognisance for that circle game,
The courting of the carousel they considered not
In their templed tower, seeing not the jest of life,
The godforsaken gamble, that game with terminus
At the top, where someone wins and the other one whines.

They slept in Paris, France, hitched up in a hotel,
On a rainy night, duetting in a double bed, withered
Wallpaper wilting over them as she caressed the keys
Of her Casio, covetous to sink between the sheets,
Descend within his dreams, distant and different to hers,
She sensed an extrinsic eroticism in every opposite,
An insatiable enigma in all that was alien, she giggled
Girlishly at the sumptuous sadness of the songs she sung
While it aroused in him a wilfulness, a wonder, a world
To be part, he drifted through dreams where fingers,
Other fingers, not hers, not his, freshly fervent fingers
Pressed him, played him, taught him, turned him on
As she lay, sidelined, solitary, single, sitting up
All the night, just like you said, to see who in the world
He might be, as if that might, in turn, unveil the truth
Of who was she. She was beautiful, he wanted to say,
But he could never tell her, truthfully, she could never
Understand his appreciation at a distance, his admiration
Without temptation but she drew him in, nonetheless,
Thrilled him with her air of ease, the breeze she swept
Into a single shift of the hand, flicker of the finger
As she perfumed, pouted, played the blues, blue,
Your Blue, hey blue, here is a song for you, you said.

They lived in Paris, once, in the 3rd, 2 rooms, a comical
Shelter that boycotted sunlight and a battered boiler
She duelled with at dawn with a horned heel
Of a working girl’s shoe as if to shock him from slumbers
Of wet dreams, far from her unspotted longing,
They were living together but a world apart, searching
For something to seduce them, a crown to anchor them
From the force that pulled and pushed them apart,
She was Marcie in her coat of flowers, dusting tables
With his shirt, just like you foretold, and he the fool
Trying to satisfy her by filleting her fish for her friends
To eat, concocting cakes of chocolate towers to sooth
Untapped temptations, too tempting to be taken.
They were Adam and Eve, teasing each other
Without promises, naked on hissing lawns, brother
And sister, devouring early orchards of adulthood.

They played in Paris, that pair, carrying cases
Of choruses to back street bars, decorated
In shadow and light, like you too, in Canadian days,
Cascading blonde curiosities before the camera
Found you and music makers moulded you
Into all you never wanted, never treasured,
The pleasure to try ‘em, the trouble to leave ‘em,
They knew nothing, either, about the want
But the spotlight, it was tempting, back then,
The applause, the rounds resounding, you said,
But she was more classic than celtic, more Mitchell
Than McCarthy, the green fields were almost foreign
To the fairytale Irish drifter and her keyboard carrying
Pansy who missed nothing of the cow shite and
Colleens of their native land. They were deserters
In post war days, fleeing only peace and potatoes,
Looking for a longing to dissipate complacency,
They’d been train travellers, plane passengers,
Black crows with sights on something shiny,
Motivated movers, climbing corners to catch a taste,
A scent of what was yet to be and they found each other
Like that, bold, bare and brave for a while,
On their templed street, she was his Sharon
And he, the Joni, but they were destined
For only a 45, no 33 long player and the needle
Cut through the rhapsody that ruffled them,
Aroused them, but they were too lost in the song
To notice they were singing a solo now, serenading
Themselves in a self-important spotlight, red is
Angry, green is jealous, or so you said, so she fled
The tower and left him with Joni on the mantelpiece
Singing;
‘I can’t go back there anymore
You know my keys won’t fit the door
You know my thoughts don’t fit the man
They never can, they never can.’

 

All words and artwork by Damien B. Donnelly with a helping of Joni too.

LIVING WITH PARIS, PART 1, 1997, THE ARRIVAL

 

18 years ago I first moved to Paris, 22 years of age and the first time away from home, security and everything familiar. Two months ago I arrived back in what has become my home away from home. This is the story of how it all started…

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It was raining and I couldn’t see the Tower. I’d just arrived to this strange intoxicating land, packed to bursting with abounding excitement and endless naivety, and yet it was grey, raining, and the Eiffel Tower was nowhere in sight! I knew it was in the area somewhere and remembered seeing it from all over Paris that last time, but right there, in that first, big, life changing, suddenly-becoming-a-grown-up moment, in those first few hours of being totally alone, completely a foreigner and possibly way out of my depth, it wasn’t here to greet me and I actually felt that I needed to see it in order to convince myself that I’d really and truly arrived. It had been less than a month since I’d decided to leave my home town of Dublin for the mystery of Paris and those few weeks had passed by in a blur of toasts, tears, goodbye drinks and very little preparation and I’d just spent almost an hour on a small coach coming from the gobsmacking cow shed that was Beauvais Airport with a gang of middle-aged, Irish housewives, nattering on about everything they wanted to do and see, all giggly at leaving their husbands behind to cook the dinner for the kids and their duty free bottles were already opened.
I kept thinking of Mum’s face during our farewell at Dublin airport, smiling bravely while her heart was breaking and staring at me with watery eyes that did their best not to cry, but failing instantly when she saw the tears forming in mine. My final memories of Ireland, clouded in tears, and almost missing the plane due to constant announcements for Damien Donnelly (that’s me) to pick up the nearest courtesy phone, various friends phoning in their goodbyes, along with one too many manic phone calls from a deranged doctor that I’d dated for all of 5 minutes before I felt the cold brush of his scalpel that I’d just managed to escape.
If, that night, 18 years ago, my only problem had been that I couldn’t see the Eiffel Tower, then it would’ve been a stroll in the park. However, this wasn’t really the main concern. Let’s see, I had three huge and heavy suitcases, two back-packs, a bum bag, four portfolios of varying sizes (I was going to be the new Jean Paul Gaultier, seriously! The Irish version, of course, possible in Arran sweatshirts and tweed pants!), I had no job, nowhere to live, knew absolutely nobody, had no idea which direction to start walking in and, to top it all off, I’d never studied french, if you ignored the little grammar book I’d been trying to understand on the plane. Nevertheless, for some insane reason, instead of worrying about this or even seeing any of it as a problem, I felt blissfully happy, incredibly free, and wonderfully unknown. I just couldn’t see the Tower. I think missing the reality of the situation was actually a blessing for me!
The coach, that had brought me from the aforementioned cow shed, left me and everyone else at The James Joyce (an Irish bar, can you believe it? When I’m trying to get away from the place) in Porte Maillot, which is like dropping someone off in the middle of the M1, in a rainstorm. This meant that I found myself standing on a foreign street, getting soaked to the bone in foreign rain, wary about what and where the foreign bed would be that I’d be sleeping in and wondering how long the foreign money in my pocket was going to last. It had been in my pocket for over two weeks already and had begun to diminish before I’d even left Ireland. As a true Irishman, it was into the pub and out of the rain, but unlike the true Irishman, it was a whiskey and coke instead of a pint of the hard stuff.
By the second drink I’d developed enough courage to phone up a complete stranger. A friend of a friend had given me the number of a friend of hers who’d been living in Paris for the past twenty years and, if I’d nowhere to stay, I should phone her up. Well, nowhere to stay was defiantly the case and, as it was closing in on 7pm, I wasn’t too keen beginning the search for a hotel on a dark and wintry night, especially when I hadn’t a clue as to where I was. (I told you- no preparation!). Thankfully, the friend of the friend of the friend in question hadn’t forgotten her own language and we were straight into conversation, although it wasn’t quite going in the direction I’d hoped. I hung up the phone and stared at the piece of paper, a phone number for an Irish college that acted as a hostel for students and young Gaelic travellers. ‘Give them a call and they’re bound to have a room, ask for Rosen, mention my name.’ The friend of the friend of the friend didn’t seem too keen on having a stranger over and I suddenly felt afraid and asked myself, for the first time, what the hell had I done?
I downed another whiskey, pushed the fears aside, and called the number. The first girl didn’t know Rosen, the second said the office was closed, the third asked if I knew what room Rosen stayed in and did I have a description, and then the second girl, returning to the phone, cleared everything up by telling me that Rosen ran the place but didn’t live there. Apparently, this wasn’t the office number but the student pay phone and, as the students had nothing to do with the allocation of rooms, they couldn’t help me out. Instead, they offered me their best wishes, urged me to call the office in the morning and quickly hung up the phone, leaving me with a dead line and a dead end! I was gutted and felt let down by my first encounter with the Irish community in Paris. I was already becoming a french snob!
So it was back to the friend of the friend of the friend. She had, reluctantly, said to phone her back if all else failed. When I phoned her up, I was almost at the point of tears and when I hung up, I think I actually shed one or two. My first impressions of her had been completely wrong. ‘Here’s my address, come on over and have you eaten anything?‘ were her exact words. Thanks be to God! I had somewhere to stay and I hadn’t wasted my money on the bottle of Brandy I’d already bought her in the duty-free. It was all wonderful again so I had another drink before deciding to splash out and pop into the restaurant upstairs to have my first French feast. I forgot that being an Irish bar, it was also an Irish restaurant.
After my first dinner in Paris, my new home town, I used the courage from the alcohol warming my insides to hail a taxi, speak my first bit of French and meet a stranger and her daughter, who she mentioned would stay in to meet me. Paris, here I come.
It was still raining outside as I left the bar and I still couldn’t see the Tower as a taxi manically whisked me through the foreign streets with more foreign rain on the windows, distorting the shapes and colours of this beautiful place. If it were a movie, the camera would have filmed me struggling down the Boulevard Gouvion St-Cyr, hailing and loading myself into a taxi that would drive off into the distance before the camera would pan back, zoom up over Paris’ famed Palais des Congrès before turning left to the Arc de Triomphe with the Champs-Éysées stretching out behind it and, of course, standing tall and proud down from the Arc, just across the river, would be the vision of La Tour Eiffel. It had been behind me the entire time, just beyond an arc and a rain drop, watching its newest citizen set out to discover the adventures that lay in wait for him behind the passionate puddles of Paris.

 

CHEZ MOI

 

I release you
From the obsession,
From the overly long
Ogles of observation,
Trepidation
And a grass,
Seemingly green,
Long since remembered.

You are no longer
That deep desire
In the distant darkness,
Distracting me,
Daring me
To deploy,
To defect,
To retour.

That significant
Substance
Shimmering
In the shadows,
Swaying slowly,
Seducing me,
Enticing me.

I release you
From the waking dream
And the nocturnal rêver,
The phantom waiting
For the return
And the temptation
Teasing me
With time.
The illusions
That eluded me
In waking light,
The visions
Deceiving me
In the shade of night.

You are no longer
The haunting hunger,
The taste of what once was,
What still could be,
That insatiable need
Never fully quenched,
Never truly tested.

You are now no longer obsession,
You are now just a place called home.

 

LIFE BEGINS AT…

 

A new start,
A new life
Amid the shadows
Of one already
Lived,
Years ago,
A lifetime before,
Before me,
Before I,
Before this person I’ve become
While time has shifted
And birthdays were counted
And all the while
The past
Lingered,
Called,
Reminded me
Of all I once left,
So easily,
So casually,
In a taxi
That tore me away
Without thought,
Without worry
For all that would follow on…

A new life,
A new start
In another age
Seen through older, wiser,
Sometimes more silly, eyes,
I’ve tasted other worlds,
Other places,
Other lovers,
But this circle game of life
Has carouseled me back
To before
While moved on,
Revolving
While changing
Who I am,
Who I was
And taking me closer
To all that still can be…

A new start,
A new life
And new breath
And release…

FROM THE SILENCE

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There is silence
As if all the world is hiding
As if every soul is sleeping
As if every breath is breaking
As if every person’s perishing
In the silence

There is silence
As my eyes they drown in tears
For the loss of days and years
For the thoughts that became fears
While the energy disappears
Before the silence

There is silence
And all I know is dissolving
And all I had is disappearing
As if every fear is unfolding
And every tear is falling
Within the silence

There is silence
As if all my thoughts are tiring
And all my dreams are drowning
As if all my hopes are hiding
And all my buttons are breaking
And still the silence

There is silence
In the distance I’ve put between us
And in the things we can’t discuss
In the floods that try to drown us
In the frailty, in the fear and the fuss
Behind the silence

There is silence
In a city that’s turned against me
With it’s tone, stone cold and angry
A city that had failed to hold me
While another is waiting-
Hoping to set me free
From the silence

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JONI ON THE WALL

 

After years of painting you
Tones of turbulent indigo,
Tending and transforming you,
I’m busy building you back
To basic, a fresco of freedom
For us both in walls of white,
Whittled back to what it was
Before I splashed a signature
Of substance and delight, hoping
A house could be a home, hanging you
With shadow and light, filling you
With finite fragments of all that I’d known,
Looking for a secret place, a sanctuary
For a certain time, placing Joni’s
Travelogue, framed in browns
On the bedroom wall, reckless
Daughter and muse of mine, parcelled,
Packed and now waiting removal
From this very sojourn, this song
About the midway, this intersection
Of 30 and 40, a reflective pause
In this tiny town where I never
Thought to stay, this hallow place
That prickled like a cactus tree
Till I heard it in the wind, that
Hissing, that constant twisting
Urge for going, back to the road
That lays in wait for me, cursed and charmed
But there are those who are born to stay
And others who are born to take the highway.

In that reoccurring dream
Beneath the constant darkness
Of the night, I see myself, still
Smiling as the free man in Paris
And I can hear it, even in the light,
Despite all your lofty protestations
That this place could be my place,
Soulful solace amid the hookers
And hash, but the eyes of the woman
Of heart and mind on the wall
Foretold the fear that we now face;
I am a prisoner of the white lines
On the freeway, bound not to permanent
Position, slowing down long enough to find
A place to come in from the cold,
To rest amid the warmth, a refuge
From the road, a lesson in survival,
A need for nutrition, but I am flesh
And blood and creature curious, craving
More and more from this Hejira, this journey
Not destined to be here and always,
Forever was never our factor, bound
To your tiny rooms and hallways
I’ve seen it all from both sides now
And all I want is not here growing crabby
But there and hungry and happy.

I know you will haunt me, shadows
Circling my final flight like Amelia
Lost out on her search for shore
While the black crow flies towards
The something shining, something
Seen long ago and now felt even more.

We’ve been good friends, indeed,
A fact not fiction, a love not lost
But you’ve been a mere chapter
All the same, a long season of blondes
I’ve tired of but words run short
In me now, in this place where I’m
Paying the cost, in these rooms
That have closed in on me
As time slipped by so suddenly,
So I strip you back to before,
Yet different somehow, similar
Though faintly forever changed,
The footprints never fully fading,
This flight tonight will be final
Though the sky is ablaze with stars
That never burn brighter than when
They’re already fleeting and falling.

I laid for too long neath your roof,
Dreaming of another, darker, wondering
About the what if and what could be
But let’s not talk about fare thee wells
For the wind is in and it’s set me free,
Packed with a case of you to last me
Well as I spiral through this Circle Game,
This carousel of life that looks back on itself
Through time, returning to pivotal points
Already changing and bringing me
Back into frame, to something
Once remembered, something
That can hold me, something
To inspire me, something
To encourage me.

After years of painting you
Tones of turbulent indigo,
Turning and transforming you,
I am busy building you back
To basic, finding a freedom
For us both in walls of white
But no canvas is truly the same
After it’s first been rendered,
There’s always the shadow and light,
Always something that slips away,
Always the rest that sinks within,
Always the parts that cement and stay…

While the lady sings…

“I am on a lonely road
And I am travelling,
Travelling, travelling, travelling,
Looking for something
What can it be…
All I really, really want
Our love to do
Is to bring out the best in me and in you.”

 

CITY OF SHADOWS

 

You’ve lingered in the shadows

For so long now

Hovering like some ghastly ghost

Breathing a beat behind my neck

Baying in the stillness

And beckoning me

To see you

To hear you

To return to you.

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You’ve lingered in the memory

For a lifetime

Refusing to dust and die

Replaying your part repeatedly

Washing me in waves of what was

And teasing me with

What I left

What I forgot

And what we became.

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You’ve lingered neath the skin

Like a venom

A serpent silently slivering

Seeping beneath the bones

Salivating on the separation

And hissing at me

To succumb

To submit

To surrender .

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You’ve lingered in the lines

For pages past

Writing your way into rhymes

Wriggling through the rhythms

Stealing sense from my sentences

And poetically pointing me

Back to you

Back to me

Back to before.

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You’ve lingered in the pictures

I took of you

Finding you always solitary

Seeking out the unseen shadows

Peeking into parts undiscovered

Perhaps to persuade myself

To trust you

Be part of you

Be seen with you

Again.

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