Rip from me
My heart
And allow me
Not to care.
To love
Right now
Is too worthless,
Too wearisome.
I am weighed down
With sadness
And torment.
Let me feel
Nothing
Anymore.
I beg you.
Let me live
Without needing
Or being needed.
Let me pack up emotions
And store them away,
Safely,
Securely,
I will hold them
Once again
In a time
When many suns
Have found their setting
And many wrongs
Have been righted,
In a time
When I have learnt
How to be
Who it is
The Person that I am.
Hope
SAFE IN YOUR HANDS
In the darkest of night, in the deepest of storms,
When all sound is eroded and all sight has elapsed.
When the entity arises with staff in his hand,
The Avenger of life; The Reaper, he stands.
When the world is divided and the soldier’s gun aimed,
As they gaze upon a land full of hatred and rage.
As war creates anger, base food for the weak
And the timid huddle together joined by a fearful streak.
No fear shall I have, no tear shall I cry,
No doubt for the future, no woe shall I sigh.
When ignorance breads hatred through the veins of brothers,
As the cord that binds us is untied and unattached.
When it’s brother against brother, battle of morals,
There can be no winner but forever foolish quarrels.
While the walls hold the cries of frightened little children,
In the heart of each stone lie the blood and the bruises.
The Adult, the Guardian, the Figure in the night
Makes innocent little children feel dirty neath the light.
No fear shall I have, no tear shall I cry,
No doubt for the future, no woe shall I sigh.
When disease engulfs and courage is tested,
The body feels betrayed by the mother, the protector.
As the ravages of decay mean now you walk, not run,
And the foreboding termination means tomorrow may never come.
When no more is there evidence of the strength of nature,
As the walls of destruction fall forth and crush the seed.
As the green of the earth becomes engulfed by doom,
And no more shall we witness the flowers beautiful bloom.
No fear shall I have, no tear shall I cry,
No doubt for the future, no woe shall I sigh.
For you will stand tall with strength in your hand,
Love in your heart and me at your command.
How could I fall into a crevice of decay,
When you stand beside me to bring life to my day.
Attaining the Stars
Parted from the inhuman heights of the heavens,
We dwell deep, deep down
In what we’ve shaped
Into the final spoils
Of Planet Earth,
Lost amid our own
All-consuming desire
To rise up and stand out.
We are funny creatures
Of spiraling arms
And spindly legs,
Equally drawn and repelled
By each other’s tastes and tones,
Gifted with two eyes
To view the world around us
And yet remain often oblivious
To all and everything
Other than ourselves,
Though ever curious
To understand each other,
Oft’ times care for each other,
And, more often, control each other
As we wander about on two feet
And ten tiny nubbins named toes
With spine up stretched
As if trying to reach for the stars
Though all the time busy
Trying to make stars of ourselves-
Forever wanting to shine
As we bask in the warmth of the sun
And be remembered
As we fall drowsy under the spell
Of the moon.
Fickle fellows we are
Who fall frequently fool
To fortune,
Forever following the flock,
Fast footed on the flow
Of fashion and idols of falsity,
Fiercely arrogant
And fearlessly fumbling forward
Through consumer moments,
Appetizing advertising and diets of the day-
Were we not once modeled
Upon a glorious god-
An unparalleled picture of perfection
That somehow slipped, over time, to rejection.
Ambitious creatures are we-
Carnivorously craving more from the pot
And constantly climbing this ladder,
That ladder- every ladder.
No longer willing to settle
For only land and sea,
We molded man-made wings of metal
And matched the birds in flight
Low over land and water, at first,
And then coveting the clouds
And soaring past those stars
We tried so hard as kids
To reach out and touch.
Yet here we are, today,
Ascending higher than ever,
Reaching for those inhuman heights,
Us, with our spiraling arms
And spindly legs,
Eyes to understand
And ears to comprehend,
Capable of so much glory
With our courage and convictions
And opposable thumbs-
We had the hope
To hold the whole universe
In our hungry hands
With those fumbling fingers
And gnarly nails.
We will continue
To rise onwards and upwards
Charting skies lanes and skyways,
Naming those long, burnt-out,
Fading stars
After ourselves-
As if deserving-
But, while we wage war
On our own individuality-
On those very tastes and tones
That both attract and distract us,
Then the heavens will remain,
Always and forever,
The untapped attainment of human desire.
A New Year
A new year,
A new day-
Sky’s still grey.
A new year,
A new day,
Still raining-
Weather’s still the same,
No change there,
People still on the streets
With their brollies-
Shopping,
Plodding through puddles
And slipping in the sales-
Buying what they don’t want
In wet shoes and stockings,
And cursing what they do need-
Those festive tummies
All bigger from stout,
But its cheaper today
Than yesterday
And it makes the sky
Feel far less grey.
The fairy lights have faded
And snowy white dreams
All stored away for another year
As diets replace deserts
And multi-shakes
Become the new mulled wine.
A new year,
A new day,
But it’s still Monday
And tomorrow’s still Tuesday
And the weekend
Will follow on from the week,
Still grey, you know,
Still rain,
Still getting wet-
Still sweaty under sweaters
And scarves
And undercoats and topcoats.
A new year,
A new day,
Sky’s still grey
But under rock and stone
I can see color
Where there was none before,
Not lots of color-
Not the full spectrum on the ground
But beginnings,
Hints, possibilities-
Like those resolutions of New Year
So full of promise
In those first new days,
There is hope
Beneath all that rock and stone
And above all those clouds of grey
That will, I’ve been told, soon blow away.
A new year
A new day to live…
A Thousand Sweet Dreams
I will love you for a thousand years and a thousand years more
if only you’d ask and I would, you know, lock that love away
so it can’t be touched, tarnished or tampered with. I will hide it
so deep within my heart that every beat will be stronger for it.
I will love you for a thousand years though a thousand others
may come and go, to distract me, delight me, even deceive me
but you will remain, as always, the single force that lies within,
that assures me in the darkness you have been a guiding light,
that reminds me in happiness you made me smile. I will love you
for a thousand years as if we’d spent a thousand nights together,
as if I’d been kissed by your lips a million times, as if I’d dreamt
in your arms a hundred dreams, as if we’d always laid together
and I’d woken up to your gaze every morning since time began.
I’ll love you like this, I promise, for a thousand years and more
and will ignore what we really are, what we have always been
and will forever be. I will love you, truly, for a thousand years.
I will love you for a thousand years, behind shadows, in private,
you’ll be my sweetest secret, the hand never held, or lips kissed,
or arms ever wrapped in. I will love you for a thousand years
in that dream always dreamt, forever a dream, never to waken,
never to end. We were not meant for the harsh light of reality.
We were but briefly met, barely known and yet never forgotten.
We have become the stuff that dreams are made of, candy floss
and unicorns, fairytales and forever afters. We could never be
day-to-day, common place, product of routine, we’re the dream
of the dreamers, without beginning or end. We are the sweet
existence of slumber, you and I, sweet is the dream we share.
All words and graphics by Damien B. Donnelly




