Are we alike-
I ask myself?
Could we ever be linked
Together,
Today, any day,
As Mother and Son?
Can we even claim
Those titles
Within each others eyes
Having spent
All our lives
Apart,
Or rather-
All of mine
Since that cord was cut?
And yet, I wonder
Do ties still bind?
Did it hurt
When we
That were both united
Were parted?
How was it to give life
And then watch it
Being taken away?
Do you still consider me child-
Your child,
Your first child?
Or were there others that followed
Who remained by your side?
Are you mother now
To others-
Do you wrap yourself around them
As you once,
So briefly,
Wrapped yourself
Around me?
Do they know
Of my existence
Or not at all,
As I know not of bother or sister-
Another title I dare not claim.
You should know
That I am happy-
That I’ve known joy,
Can you feel it?
After all, it was you
Who gave me the life
To live it-
The one who grew within you,
Who has developed without you,
Who has walked onwards-
SInce birth,
Though ever increasingly
Away from you,
Who has spoken
Often of you
But never directly to you,
Who grew to know love,
In part,
Because of a single decision
You made.
When I see you now-
Deep in my mind-
It is far from the fantasies I once
Envisioned you in.
You are more balanced
In realism, today
Than the childhood dreams
Of Queen in a tower
Or Star on the stage.
That I live-
It is due to your sacrifice,
Those 9 months-
A lifetime to the child that you were-
A child carrying
A child within,
But still,
You gave me time-
Body and soul,
You gave me the chance
With spirit and pride
As you waded through whispers
And rose above rumors.
I’ve had a mother-
Since we parted,
Since leaving the comforts
Of your swollen belly-
A mother who moulded me,
Minded me,
And moved me
With a thousand remembrances
Of your gift to her.
A woman who knew the sacrifice you had made,
Who’d cried the same tears you shed,
A woman who made me grateful
For the Wonder that was You.